Happy 2008

Well, 2008 has finally arrived. It was saddening to say goodbye to such a wonderful year. 2007 was a year of growth for me with a lot of things. Starting this blog has helped with my writing. I've got a boyfriend who I've been spending time with now. I've also let go of some things that have been bothering me for a while.

But I'd just like to wish all of you a happy 2008. Best wishes, regards, and thanks!

A Topic of Love?

My friend has strong opinions about love which I respect and can understan greatly. "Unless you know what you want from that particular person. Loving that person is meaningless." she commented about the post before.

I haven't the need to put you down, my friend, but as I said, I believe it is something I can look really deeply into and that's what's keeping my inspirational fire burning right now. I'm running on love and I'm not ready to stop. But it's true. Why should we love someone when we don't know what will become of it. I sometimes ask that about people I see, people I know, but I know what I want from that particular person I love. I want his love, his sincereness, his generousity, his humour, and his ability to pick things up happily when I'm down. I want to know that guy until I die. I don't only ask for that, but I what I want to get out of my my current relationship is that long term relationships can last and end somewhat happily ever after and I'm probably a fool in love right now, but there's just something that I know about my boyfriend that tells me there's something different than all those who have failed or not tried hard enough.

But perhaps, my friend, you will prove me long. Perhaps my ambitions are too big and I'm a fool for believing so hard about things. Maybe I don't have a good enough reason, but I don't care. Life is too damn short to be worrying about what happens anyway. Just gotten let it drive till I run out of fuel, right? If I get caught up in the worrying and trying to perfect the imperfectness of the world, I mind as well lie down and die because that's not what I stand for, no sir.

But my friend has opened my eyes to the real reality of things and sometimes I'm still in fantasy land, afraid of what the real world has in store for me. I'll find out whether I get hurt or rewarded about opening up fully to reality, but I can dream.

So I'd just like to thank you Lana, because don't take this as an arguement or insult, or anything for that matter. You're words mean a lot to me, my friend. Just like anyone else's comments. They go a long way in my thought process and I know what you mean. I just wanna let you know that I'm not a complete fool in love. I know what I want and I'll strive hard to get it. If I don't succeed. Then I'll only be driven to go farther and succeed or die trying.

Anyway, happy holidays and thank you everyone for your support!

One Loved One for One Million

Would you save millions of others by killing your loved one? Could you bare to only save the two of yourselves and kill off the rest of humanity, or kill that special person and save the rest of the world. Is it immoral to want to save those we hold dear, because they might seem like the only person we have? Or is it politically correct to save those millions we'll never know?

I ponder this question often. How love affects our decisions and I truly believe that without love, the world would be very hopeless. For those of you think love is a foolish young persons' game, then think again because love goes farther than loving people. Love also falls into caring dearly for this bouncing ball called Earth and our home. We're running out of time quicker than yout think. So is it right to want to save that one person that means the whole damn world to you?

It can go both ways, but if you picture yourself standing there with the gun and the chance to save the rest of the world, or just the two of yourselves, and things start to snap into perspective a little. It would seem more moral to save the entire world, risking that one person, but then could you live with yourself, taking your loved one's life? I think not, I think it would be better to just take our own life and save the loved one and the rest of the world. I'm not saying this to be depressing.

I'd just like to snap a few things back into perspective and reality, the reality that some people can't stand to realize exists in this hard world of ours. I truly believe love is a key to our lives, it doesn't matter what form. Mentall, physically, emotionally, and caringly and so forth. The Holidays are here, time for family, friends, and mostly love. More love to those we do know and a little to those strangers who are more or less fortunate than us. Just remember not to take things for granted because life is like a game of chess. If your threatened to lose one of five pieces, what would you do? Things won't always be there.

Most of us will never be faced with the choice to save the world or themselves with another. But just think about what could happen when something could be jeopordized. Let things fall into perspective, and sweep those negative thoughts away. Try to be a positive, but not over confident. Don't regret and learn from everything you do wrong. Don't be afraid to take risks and live, love, and laugh.

Happy Holidays!
Merry Christmas!
Happy New Year!

I Stand for...

The Holidays draw near. Merry Christmas and happy Hanakkah(sorry about spelling), whatever you may celebrate, I respect that. This also means the end of the year is drawing closer and closer. So let me just think about a few things.

I thought this year was going to be the worse. In January, a couple of my friends decided I wasn't worthy of them anymore. I was lost and searching for inspiration that was in front of me. Rumours were going around the school about me and some other guy I didn't even know. I thought I was spinning into a whole of darkness, into dread, fear, and anxieties I'd never be able to cure.

Then a lot of good things happened. My best friend, a guy, asked me out and officially became my boyfriend a few months later. It was a blessing after the hard January I suffered and my crush on him since third grade was no longer that. I started to understand things. I understood why people did things out of love, it wasn't desperation all the time. Love happened to me.

Summer came and I grew further from my girl friends, and closer to my guy friends and my boyfriend. As a girl, it might be strange, but I tend to get along a lot better with guys. There's just something about guys that you can't live with or without. The new school year started and my relationship was back, which you've heard a lot about the last couple of months. Our first kiss was a big step...God it blew me away and I replay those scenes and feelings over and over again.

The summer...back to it, my inspiration came back. I found it from my boyfriend and a couple of good friends from the Hugh Jackman Fan Messageboard Forums. They know who they are, and I won't name them right now. They picked me up and I was starting to understand that inspiration is everywhere. I also came to learn that I needed to live life to its fullest more, even though I go on telling others they should when I'm not even doing it.

2007 started with a slump. Then it builded back up and dropped, and then up to where I am right now. I'm sure a slump with follow with what's going on in my life now that I'll discuss later, but I'll have my boyfriend who has always something to do with that up and nothing with the down. I promise you that.

2008 is going to start out better than this year. I'm gonna do everything I can to keep the love I have now growing, hopefully prove to all of the friends I've kept that I can make something special out of the relationship with my boyfriend and not just a total mess up and break up that was waiting to happen. No, I will not stand to what my friends believe that the two of us will be gone in a year or so. I'll surpass a year very soon, so they'll have to push their limit and they'll keep having to until I win. I'm not a quitter. Don't let me forget that.

I've reflected on this year. Ups and downs, what a ride and I can't wait what 2008 has in store because I know it's gonna be better than last year. I'm gonna ride it until I've been forced off by a force bigger than nature and bigger than anyone can withstand.

Now take a minute, or few, and reflect on your year. Note your negatives first to remember what you learned, something I try rarely to do, and then think positive as you end. Then remember what you stand for. Whether it's proving a bunch of your friends wrong, saving up the money that seems impossible to save, or just making life better for yourself and others, remember the things you stand for.

I stand for my love, my determination, and my dedication. I stand for much more than you can image. So do you. Together, we stand, united, as one, not as a country. Individually we stand for our own things, beliefs, and proofs, but together we stand for everything in this world.

Stand for something now.
Never be pushed down.
Stand together, fall together,
but not without a fight.