"I Love You"

It's a phrase I know a lot of people take for granted. It's one I will never, ever, will take for granted. Recently, my boyfriend who I've been dating for less than a year told me this. In fact, I think it's one of the most amazing things he's ever said to me. We also kissed for the first time and I have to say I thought we wouldn't stop.

This is beside the point though, love isn't something we should take for granted at any day, moment, or point in time. It's something that will keep going if you truly believe because ya gotta believe! If ya don't, then you're what I call, a hopeless case. Now I know there are some days where you can't believe and there are exceptions. You can't believe all the time, every single second because there are fears and emotions that won't or can't let us do this after events of before events and so on. But if you can't take a lot of things for granted. Though love is something we do and someday it's not going to be there.

I'm not trying to be negative, but it's the truth and when someone says it, tell them you do too and every once in a while, express it more with a hug or kiss because you have to tell them you really care. If that's not possible, at least a friendly smile because ya gotta believe. Everything you do, you must have faith in yourself because if you don't, then you're not believing in yourself and others, than your force of unbelievingness powers out to the others and will spread. Smiles spread, happiness spreads, love, honesty, peave, hope, empowerment, they all spread and you got to spread the love to everyone.

Going back to myself and the current most amazing events in my life, that was my first kiss that really meant something between us. And now we're ending calls with the phrase that we always almost take for granted, "I love you" and when it's said, I reply back with "I love you too" because that's the right thing, but not just that, because in those simple words, something is transferred back to him or your special someone.

That something is love.

Physical, Mental, Your State of Mind

There are someday when you don't feel like getting out of bed...mentally, physically, or even both. Sometimes your gut feeling is that this day is going to be bad from day one or that it's going to be the greatest day you'll ever have. When your excited, you'll get up wanting whatever that is that is so exiting to happen. Or maybe, your so unpleased about what is going to happen that you feel like hitting the snooze button that'll keep letting you sleep for the next five minutes. It's your state of mind. When you go to bed, say hey, i can do this and I'm going to get up tomorrow knowing that I'm going to accomplish whatever devious or happy task that waits ahead. Even though you want to wake up and say, 'Damnit, another crappy day awaits!" So it's not that bad, but you gotta tell yourself you're coming home in one piece, never in two or three or a million. Of course if your physically or mentally unstable to get out of bed, then please don't get out and stay there like you are supposed to.

Don't let things from days before or days ahead stop you from doing anything. Don't let a break up heart break bring you down to rock bottom. Capitalize on the good like, I don't know, that new kid that's going to be your new boyfriend, or that kiss your boyfriend gave you for the first time if you're not ina heartbreak. If you're older, think about your children, your wonderful spouse, your wonderful friends, and everything everyone does out of the way for you. Say you're paralyzed from the waist down, well, you've still got arms and a head and a torso to use so what the hell? Use it to it's power and make life what you want it to be, not what it wants you to be. Living life to its fullest is the ultimate goal in life besides living and if you're not ready to, then you're not living life.

There are so many things awaiting in our lives, so don't let them wait for you. Don't miss a step and trip up though, sometimes going slow is the right thing and going fast isn't. Whatever awaits you, may you have the power to do that. So God bless, or whatever yoou believe in.

Back to Tuesday, 9/11

Well, it's been six years and this is the first time 9/11 has occured on it's original day, Tuesday. Yet they say we're honoring those 'heroes' that risked their lives for others. Though that insecurity lingers with the word hero, I'll salute them again and again, and I'll thank those who risked their lives for every one at the World Trade Center, in The Pentagon, and United 93. God bless all those men and woman. For if you're going to call anyone a hero, it's those people on United 93. I have little to say right now, for I am not in the writing mood, but I'd like to say God Bless everyone affected by 9/11/2001. May those who passed live on in us. The best way to preserve those who died to save, is to create peace in our world.

Fiction

*Spoilers of Harry Potter 7*

I found myself reading the seventh book of Harry Potter and crying over it again and yelling at it that how could it possibly be over? How could Remus Lupin, Tonks, Fred Weasly, and Severus Snape be all dead along with numerous others that I could ramble off. Then I said, why am I shedding tears and getting angry over fictional characters. Well, because some fiction is real enough we get so wrapped up. Maybe that's why JK Rowling is a good author, maybe one of the best. My undying love for the characters will still live on. Yet I didn't understand the first time I read it that I had been crying over fictional characters. The second time I did realize that, but some fiction can take you away like that.

How can something be so real when it's not. Influences of today and yesterday and tomorrow and so on are full of tragedies and we can relate to some fiction so much because it is based on things the writers have expierienced and the good ones will give us feelings for the characters, the bad ones will not. But with all that's happening today, I'd just as soon cry over reality as I did to the seventh Harry Potter Book. You can get attached to things and when they end or are gone, you feel that something has left your heart. It's like your best friend abandoning you or your best friend or a family member passing away.

And yet you wonder why I bother to go about fiction, well because it shows that people write to express. Some people talk, some people protest, and some people don't express themselves, but all in all, we're missing a lot of expression of our opinions and our feelings because we're pressured by today's world and all the problems with solutions that don't work and many that do by are not efficiant. Yet we live in this crazy world and all we have is each other. Someday, I'll be gone, someday, you'll be gone, but while we live, we oughta make the best of it. We oughta make this world better for our next generation too. The next time a millenium rolls round, we just might not be here because the world is too polluted, do deathly, or too full of hate to live in and when that happens, we oughta still make the best of it and try to fix it, and fix it. Yet you try, try, and try again and yet again you keep trying and you can't accomplish whatever you are trying to do and that's okay. Maybe Yoda was being harsh when he said, 'do or do not, there is no try.' Evidentally, it makes sense and yet we go on living with giving up too or so easily that nothing is ever accomplished that should have been.

Yet I drift off topic and it doesn't matter because it just doesn't. It's like there are something that are just better left alone because for God's sake, it just should. I might not make sense, but just think about how this world could be so much better if we loved, expressed, and be honest, then we might just make it together.