Good Bye, For Now

It's been hard the last month for me. I thought I was all right, but I'm really not. Not in a mental sense anyway. So I'm here, to say goodbye, for now at least. I'll be back once in a while. But I don't have the ability to go on right now. Things are too hard after losing two people that you used to see everyday, but now they're gone and when you wish you could say everything you didn't yet.

There's so many things left unsaid to them. Things I'd wish I'd told them, if only I knew God had it in destiny for them to die. I hadn't been in a church for maybe years, yet one of the funerals brought me there...I went to one for Easter, for them...my friends. I wasn't there to ask God for anything but that wherever my two friends are, that they're happy. That's all I asked along that love would keep everyone I knew strong.

I never intend to enter another church unless I do it for them first, and me second. I don't want to by a hyprocrite. There's been so many times when I've asked God for things...maybe miracles, and I know that He is listening, but He cannot keep me strong.

I can't say when I'll be back. Writing on the internet is no longer a priority for me. No...I am sorry. Thank you so much, but I'll be back soon...I promise. Don't worry about me either.